nicolerants — Wed, 29 Jun 2011 03:21:55 +0000

I’m so pissed, annoyed, irritated and depressed.

nicolerants — Fri, 24 Jun 2011 15:23:58 +0000

OMG, i dont care even if this is going to be a wrong move or not. I dont care what is it going to be. BUT i know that you’re going w me for holiday and that’s it. I was told to think twice, and i did! But now, no need already. You’re going to be just mine for 3 fucking days!

So fucking jealous and so much angst now!

nicolerants — Thu, 23 Jun 2011 08:48:08 +0000

So fucking jealous till I dont even want to think anymore. I’m just going, totally going for the holiday!

At least will be mine for 3 fucking days!

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nicolerants — Thu, 26 May 2011 14:52:18 +0000

I’m getting sick of myself feeling this way already! In fact, i’m so worried i will be depressed and sad forever. Omg, that’s so psychotic till i think i need to see a doctor or something -.-

Reading through the past posts, i realised that i went from sad, depression and to now what i am, acceptance. It’s like i’m so used to it till sometimes i dont even feel anything at all. Scary huh? Yeah, i think so too. Every little thing around me reminds me of you even when i try not to think about it. I miss the time where you will wait downstairs my place, eat w me, accompany me to look for my yoghurt just to satisfy my cravings, sit w me by the river, shop around w you & trying on clothes that was funny and stuff. I really do want that to continue but i cant see myself trying anymore. I’m really very tired of it, really.

It’s like if you tell me you want our r/s to stay the way we are, i would. I dont think i would ever say no to you, no matter what people tell me or knowing how stupid i am. I tried avoiding and all, but it made me miss you so much more. From now on, i will take one step back.

I think i have given up. I hear far too many of such lies & i’m so sick of it. If i was so impt, prove it to me then! If not just fuck off from me, cause dont even dream of gaining anything from me.

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