All wrong
May 26, 2011
I’m getting sick of myself feeling this way already! In fact, i’m so worried i will be depressed and sad forever. Omg, that’s so psychotic till i think i need to see a doctor or something -.-
Reading through the past posts, i realised that i went from sad, depression and to now what i am, acceptance. It’s like i’m so used to it till sometimes i dont even feel anything at all. Scary huh? Yeah, i think so too. Every little thing around me reminds me of you even when i try not to think about it. I miss the time where you will wait downstairs my place, eat w me, accompany me to look for my yoghurt just to satisfy my cravings, sit w me by the river, shop around w you & trying on clothes that was funny and stuff. I really do want that to continue but i cant see myself trying anymore. I’m really very tired of it, really.
It’s like if you tell me you want our r/s to stay the way we are, i would. I dont think i would ever say no to you, no matter what people tell me or knowing how stupid i am. I tried avoiding and all, but it made me miss you so much more. From now on, i will take one step back.
I think i have given up. I hear far too many of such lies & i’m so sick of it. If i was so impt, prove it to me then! If not just fuck off from me, cause dont even dream of gaining anything from me.
